I have a lot of issues around food and my body so I was feeling quite apprehensive about this task. So apprehensive in fact that I completely missed that there was scripture tied in with the fasting-Isaiah 48. I kept thinking about it and I guess God was trying to get me to look at my calendar. I was so focused and dare I say obsessed with my self that I wasn't focused on God. I missed the important part--the word of God. Bummer!
The fast itself was actually fairly simple. It kind of felt like the easier, softer fast since it was only for the daylight hours but since it was my first fast I guess I should be grateful. I ate breakfast in the dark (not literally) so I then only had to wait until about 7pm to eat dinner. I started feeling hungry at about 11:30am and I think Satan was up to his tricks. I was feeling a little weird so I prayed to God to be with me and I felt fine after that. Whenever I started thinking about food I would pray and the sensations eased.
What was also difficult for me was the starting to eat again. I didn't feel very hungry until I started eating. I was also concerned at what I was putting into my mouth and how would my body accept it. The scary part was the feelings I had after I started eating. I wanted to keep eating even though I knew I should have been full and satisfied and that reminded me of my eating disorders--especially the bingeing after depriving myself. I didn't over do it though and I physically felt fine after and did not have to berate myself for overdoing it.
All in all, the fasting was a good experience for me. I learned that I could be hungry and still be okay. I learned that not eating for 12 hours wouldn't kill me. And I also learned that "I can do all things with Christ Jesus who strengthenths me" Philippians 4:13. Last but not the very least at all, I learned to trust Jesus more and fear less. I actually have been relying on that since then.
Trust Jesus more, Fear everything less.
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